The truly selfish person

Again? You might think. Yes, again.

Suicide is selfish, that’s what everyone says these days. And I’m gonna jump on the train of those who say it’s not. 

They took the selfish way out, they say. They only thought about themselves, they say. There are a million different ways to handle depression. That’s what they say. But what do they know?

If you think suicide is selfish you’ve never been in a really dark place. You’ve never felt hopeless, helpless, alone, lonely. Those who don’t know the black, deep, seemingly never-ending hole that is depression think that it’s selfish to take your own life.

But they always say that the person who committed threw the people around them into a dark hole in return, all those who stay behind. They should’ve said something, should’ve sought help, fight.

What if they did fight? What if they did everything they could but it wasn’t enough? It can be like quicksand, pulling you further down when you fight as hard as you can. But maybe suicide isn’t as selfish as you think it is. Maybe it’s anything but.

“Until you've lost your soul to a sea of emptiness and darkness...you don't get to make judgments.”

You haven’t walked a day in their shoes, you haven’t felt the pain they endured, you haven’t been there on their darkest days and nights, you haven’t seen them laughing on the outside and knowing they’re crying on the inside, you haven’t been bullied like they have been. You haven’t felt that all at once, so you don’t get to judge someone by their inability to hold on any longer.

Suicide isn’t as selfish as everyone makes it. Don’t judge those who committed if you don’t know what they really went through. Maybe it’s not the right way out, but maybe sometimes it’s the only way left for those who are truly hopeless, helpless, alone, lonely. 

Selfish are those who think they have a right to judge the ones who weren't as strong, or those who were strong enough for so long and couldn't hold on any longer. Those are the selfish people, who think they have a right to think that that certain person had a job to hold on for them.