Samstag, 7. Dezember 2013

Bookreview: 'Staying On Top' by Lyla Payne

*I received an ARC in exchange for my honest review*

Sam Bradford has it all—he’s the #2 tennis player in the world, plenty of girls want to date him, and he’ll never want for money. At least, that’s what he thought until his accountant stole everything and disappeared. Interpol has no idea where to start, and neither does the American F.B.I., so Sam figures he’ll just have to take care of his body and play a few extra years to make it back.

When Blair Paddington, the accountant’s daughter and a friend of a friend at Whitman, shows up and claims she can help Sam get his money back he’s torn between wanting justice and the very real possibility that Blair is just as big a con man as her father. When she promises not only money, but justice, Sam agrees—but only if he can go along on the search.

The two of them set off on an adventure neither rich kid is prepared for—cheap hostels, the same clothes three days in a row, and nothing but a backpack of possessions—so they can fly under the radar as college lovers on a winter break. In spite of Blair’s shady family, her daring and resourceful personality strike Sam’s interest and he finds himself falling for the one girl he shouldn’t.

When they finally find her father, the truths that come to light not only make Sam question his affection for Blair, but could cost him more than money—if they can’t work together one last time, neither of them may be going home. Ever.


Sam and Blair first met when they were on holiday in St.Moritz with friends. Sam showed his interest in Blair but Blair turned him down, not wanting to hook up with a guy who gets every girl he wants, and too afraid to get closer to people and actually having to trust them.

She reminded me of an animal in the woods, one trying to decide whether or not to take the carrot out of my hand. Scaring her away was the last thing I wanted.”

When they meet again Blair tries her best to ignore her growing feelings for Sam, his charm and him trying to make her see how good things could be if she would just let it happen. They are on a mission: getting Sam's money back; at least that's what Sam thinks is the plan. But for Blair it's way more than that.

And there was no doubt I would lose him. The only question was when.”

After her mother died, it's always been Blair and her father, or just Blair. Her father's been gone most of the time, wanted by Interpol and the FBI for stealing rich people's money.
But how much does Blair know about Sam's stolen money when she comes to him to team up with him to track down her father? That's what Sam tries to find out while slowly falling for the only girl he probably shouldn't fall for.

You're really pretty when you smile. For a devil.”


Sam is not the typical rich bad boy, the manwhore known for his way of fucking around. Sure, he had his fair share of women but I like the side of him we get to know in Staying On Top. I like how different the story is, compared to the other Whitman University books (which I also highly recommend). I'm not the biggest fan of book series but this is one of the best I've ever read. I love the characters, how they all have their life outside of university.

LylaPayne told Sam's and Blair's story in a great way. During their road trip we get to know both of them, how they discover their feelings, how they try to hide them and how they fight them. It's told in a gorgeous way of two people getting to know each other, trying to be friends when they know there's more than that. Their feelings develop slower than most of the NA loves in books and it's so much better, I think. It creates an anticipation and excitement, and I loved every page of this book.
I couldn't put it down and love Lyla's writing style. She's an inspiration for my own writing and that's what makes books special for me. This one is special and I highly recommend it.

Sonntag, 1. Dezember 2013

I feel alive

That's what music does. Did you ever try to describe music? It's like describing love – like describing what water tastes like. It's a precious part in my life. Music has become such an important for me. I listen to music any chance I get. And going to concerts is one of the best things.
No matter how much you doubt anything in your life, about yourself, or whatever it is you're feeling right then, music makes it better. Someone said that the best thing about when the music hits you is, that you feel no pain. And it's true. It erases pain, it makes it better, it helps. I don't know where I'd be without music and I'm grateful for all the bands I love for making music. For helping people, for giving us the time of our lives when they play live for the crowd. Music shouldn't be about trying to impress others with the bands you're listening to. I listen to music just for me. At concerts I don't care about anything else for at least two hours and it's the best f***ing feeling. Is there anything better than being in a room full of people who are all there for the same reason?
When the lights go out, and people start cheering and screaming, and the band enters the stage. The first tunes flow through the room and everyone claps their hands and sings the first lines of the song. Spending the night with live music is one of the best ways to spend it.
And for a little while I feel alive.

Freitag, 29. November 2013

I am thankful!

I'm actually thankful for so many things. I intended to post this yesterday when it was Thanksgiving in the US, but I'm not from the US so I thought it doesn't really matter when I post this.
Yesterday at work I thought that it would be nice to celebrate something like Thanksgiving here in Germany. I often think that people take too many things for granted. They don't think about what it means to have certain people in their life. They're there and they expect them to always be there. But maybe they're not. I learned the hard way that too many people leave your life way too early. I lost so many people due to different circumstances and maybe that makes you think about things differently. I try to tell the people I really love and want in my life how much they mean to me. I even feel guilty when I forget to tell my mom that I love her when I go back to university on Sundays. It sounds crazy but I want her to know and hear it. I'm always afraid that one day another person I love will be gone. Those things scare me but I confront myself with those thoughts, even if that sounds crazy but it's a good thing for me, or not so good.

I'm thankful for the people in my life, those who show me or tell me that they're happy to be in my life. I'm one of those who need a constant reminder that they actually want to be friends with me, that it means something to them. I doubt myself way too often and way too much, and them telling me they like being friends with me helps a lot.
I need those people in my life who support my crazy ideas, my unhealthy obsessions, my fucked up moods and the times when I doubt myself too much. I'm thankful for my parents (that actually includes my mom and stepdad). And I'm thankful for two people who gave me the chance of my life this year. Two authors who let me do what I love doing – editing their books. They gave me my first chances and didn't really know what to expect. I'm so thankful for that because they helped me so much in getting closer to my dream-job.

On another note, I'm thankful for my dog, books, music, TV shows (I'm really addicted to American TV shows, I can't help it), movies, traveling, and all things awesome. Online shopping, yeah, I'm definitely thankful for that.

I'm sure I forgot a lot of things and there are too often moments in my life when I forget all these things I just mentioned. I forget them when I'm down, when I'm annoyed, when I don't feel good. But I try to remind myself of all the good things.

xx

Freitag, 13. September 2013

Bookreview: 'Be My Downfall' by Lyla Payne

*I received an ARC in exchange for my honest review*

Toby Wright has always prided himself on being one of the most normal guys at Whitman University. He loves his parents, has a great job lined up after graduation, and with the exception of attempting to cross the unbalanced Sebastian Blair sophomore year, has kept his nose pretty clean.

But the rich never have empty closets, and memories long stashed away come spilling free when notorious party girl Kennedy Gilbert almost dies in his dorm room.

Nobody really knows how Kennedy manages to stay in good standing at Whitman–she never goes to class, doesn’t pretend to care about her future, and as far as people can tell, is never sober. This isn’t her first meeting with a stomach pump, but it is the first time she’s woken up to Toby’s concerned brown eyes. Despite the fact that she prefers life without friends, he gets under her skin with his insistence on playing her guardian angel.

No one knows better than Toby that people can only be saved if they want to be, but the realization that she has no one else draws him back into the shadows of Kennedy’s life–and eventually into her bed. But she long ago came to terms with a truth that Toby refuses to accept: she doesn’t want to be rescued, she only wants to forget.

Unwilling to give up on her, Toby’s dragged under by this broken girl and her dark, twisted Whitman University he never guessed existed. If he struggles to the surface, he’ll abandon someone he loves for the second time in his life. If he doesn’t, it won’t be long until they both drown.


She had taught me about real love – and that it had to be selfless.”


This book left me speechless and broke my heart a million times. This is one of the most emotional books I've read lately. Lyla Payne has a way with words, and if you consider that the story was only told from the male character's POV, Toby Wright, it gives you even more reasons to be speechless.
It's not only about love. It's about loss, pain, finding yourself, accepting who you are and mostly about living life.


Toby Wright is not the typical golden boy. He doesn't get into trouble, doesn't drink much and is a good student.
Kennedy Gilbert is not the typical girl. She's barely ever sober, doesn't plan her future and only takes classes she neither has to work for nor attend.

Even though Toby knows it's not a wise idea, he gets involved with Kennedy and her countless problems. Kennedy tries her best to push Toby away, to not feel anything good because she doesn't deserve it, and to piss him off. She has more problems than anyone ever noticed and tries to handle them her way. Toby failed once but now he wants to do the right thing. After spending some weeks with a notorious party girl and witnessing her ways of handling life he realizes it's not that easy to save her from herself.

You can't save anyone who isn't willing to save themselves.”

How do you save a person who doesn't want to be saved? How do you handle someone who's so willingly throwing her life away? How do you live when the only person left in your life tells you that you don't deserve to be alive?

I already loved the first two books in Lyla Payne's Whitman University Series but this one is by far my favorite. Maybe it's because it's written from the male POV only, or because of the fact that it's not only about young love. It's not only about two college students falling in love, it's about struggling with life, the past and the fact that you can't save everyone.
Life isn't always easy, and just because your parents are filthy rich doesn't mean life's always fair or you're not struggling with events that are long gone. Life is not perfect.
Even though the reader only gets to read about Toby's thoughts we also get a good impression about what Kennedy feels, thinks and about how she sees her life, her future and herself.

I'm still swooning over Toby and, damn, I totally fell in love with that guy. He's no bad boy and he tries to be the hero in Kennedy's life, but everyone needs a hero sometimes.

I enjoyed this book so much and can't wait to read more from Lyla Payne. 
I highly recommend this book and the whole series! 

Mittwoch, 11. September 2013

My Life According To All Time Low

Two friends already posted this game and as I love song challenges I had to do this one, too.

So the rules are simple: Choose a band and use their song titles, cleverly answer the questions with song titles, use every song only once. Done. It's harder than you think. Re-post as: My Life According To...

I chose All Time Low, one of my favorite bands. It was hard sometimes, but those games are always fun.

 
    Pick your artist.  
    All Time Low

    Are you male or female?  
    That Girl

    Describe yourself.
    A Daydream Away

    How do you feel?  
    Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass

    Describe where you currently live.
    Somewhere in Neverland

    If you could go anywhere, where would you go?  
    Hello, Brooklyn

    Your favorite form of transportation:  
    Let It Roll

    Your best friend is...  
    The Reckless And The Brave

    You and your best friends are...  
    Lost In Stereo

    What's the weather like?  
    Six Feet Under The Stars

    If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?
    Coffee Shop Soundtrack

    What is life to you?  
    Sick Little Games

    Your last relationship:
    A Love Like War

    Your fear:  
    Therapy

    What is the best advice you have to give?  
    Stay Awake (Dreams Only Last For A Night)

    How would you like to die?
    Weightless

    Your soul's present condition?  
    The Irony Of Choking On A Lifesaver

    Your motto:  
    To Live And Let Go





Let me know if you did this, too, and link me to your blog. Have fun!

Freitag, 23. August 2013

Don't let the world get in your way.

Sunrise at 6:30 in the morning, two weeks ago. I was on my way to work and I love sunrises and sunsets!



That's what I wanna do, get away one day. Following my dreams, doing what I love to do. I don't wanna live in this small town forever, so yeah, getting away one day is part of my dreams.



I made it. I was scared shitless but hell yes, it turned out great and I loved editing this book (I'm the editor of the revised version). If you like New Adult books, read 'Beneath Your Beautiful' by Tamsyn Bester (check out her Goodreads account). It was her debut novel and I loved the story.



Music became one of the biggest parts of my life, so of course I love my new bracelet.



Sunset a few weeks ago. These colors!


Sonntag, 4. August 2013

Bookreview: 'Bring Me Home' by Cassia Leo

Claire Nixon is a college student with a past full of secrets and heartbreak. She was saved once by her first love, and rock star, Chris Knight. But when she encouraged Chris to leave town to pursue his dreams, both Claire and Chris didn’t realize it would be the biggest mistake of their lives.

After a devastating year apart and thousands of miles of distance between them, Claire met sexy surfer Adam Parker. With his awful jokes and profound patience, he helped Claire pick up the shattered pieces of her broken heart for the second time.

But now Chris has returned and he is willing and determined to make Claire’s dreams come true—the same way she did for him when she let him go.

With Adam’s former girlfriend in the picture, Claire finds herself torn between the new, passionate love she shares with Adam and the love and family she shares with Chris.



Heartbreakingly adorable. Amazing. Romantic. Surprising. And the best ending.

Love is not black and white. It's not even gray. Love is every shade of color in the spectrum, changing with every ray of light given and stolen. Sometimes you forget how much you love someone, until you realize their smile is like a spotlight shined on your heart.“

I'm still searching for the right words to describe this book in more than a few words. But first, I couldn't put it down.
After Pieces Of You, pretty much everything was possible. Claire got an engagement ring from Chris and a promise ring from Adam. But who would she choose?
Claire and Chris shared a deep love until she broke up with him so he could follow his dreams. She didn't wanna hold him back and even gave up their daugther without him knowing.
Claire met Adam when she needed someone the most and he was there for her and helped her survive one of the hardest times of her life.
Two men. Two different types of love. Two different lives.

Bring Me Home had so many surprising moments. Claire chooses one of the two men at the beginning of the book but that's not the end of the story. There's so much more, so many things that happen. Happy moments, sad moments, doubts and surprises. This book is anything but boring and the person who isn't happy at the end of this book did something very wrong. No matter if you were rooting for Chris or Adam, I'm sure that at the end you'll be happy for them all.

Again Cassia Leo had a way to describe what Claire, Chris and Adam feel that makes you excited for every upcoming page. I couldn't stop reading and that doesn't happen all too often. Sure there are some great books out there but I don't remember the last time I read a book in one day. But when I started Bring Me Home I wanted to know everything. Why did Claire choose the one she chose? What happens to the other great characters: Tristan, Senia, Jackie? Like I said there are so many things happening in Bring Me Home and at the end I was happy for all of them.

No one knows how to love me like you and no one knows how to hurt me like you.“

Music was an important part for this last book of the series and I love the songs Cassia Leo picked to underline the thoughts and actions of her characters. There are some of my favorite songs in there and they fit perfectly.

I can't believe this series is over and even though it leaves you wanting for more because you don't wanna let those characters go, I loved the ending. You fall in love with Claire, Chris and Adam, and at the end it's good to see them all happy, no matter what they had to go through, it seems like it was all worth it.

Mittwoch, 31. Juli 2013

The Highlighting Project!

A few weeks ago I had the following idea:


I love reading. Okay, I'm addicted to books, to be honest. I think it's interesting to see what others think of the books you like. So, that's how I got this idea. After posting this on my twitter a really good friend of mine said she'd be up for this project and that's how it went. I said that Slammed by Colleen Hoover would be a good book for this and I'm so glad that Jana from London Calling wanted to be a part of this and liked the book as much as I did.

I read the book first, using a pink highlighter and she would use a yellow one, so that the parts we both highlighted turned orange.
So, after reading the book and highlighting my favorite scenes and quotes, I gave her the book when we met at a concert a couple of weeks ago.

The book is one of my favorites. Not only because of Colleen Hoover's writing style but also because of the way she told Lake's and Will's story. Music and poems are big parts of this book, and for a music and poem lover those are good enough reasons to read this book. 

After her dad died unexpectedly, her mother decides to move with her daughter, Lake, and her 9-year-old son, Kel, from Texas to Michigan. Kel becomes good friends with the neighbor's kid who has an older brother, Will. When Lake and Will meet for the first time, Michigan doesn't seem to be that bad anymore and Lake and Will soon find their way to each other. But life has other plans and as soon as they found each other, they're forced to be apart again due to unexpected events. Even though they shouldn't be together, it's hard for them to accept it and their feelings can't be denied. Will loves poems and soon Lake shares that love with him. During their time apart poems and music seems to be the only connection between them when they try their hardest to move on.

Everyone who likes poems, music and a good love story should read this book. It's a rollercoaster, it breaks your heart, it might make you cry, but it's worth every single emotion.


If you have a friend who likes to read the same books as you, you should try this project. I loved it and I can't wait to do this again with a different book. 
Thanks again, Jana, it was great! If you wanna read her opinion on this project, go to her blog and check it out.

Dienstag, 30. Juli 2013

Bookreview: Fear Of Falling by S.L. Jennings

I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.

He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.

My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.
“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”

And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.



At that moment, I felt just like that paper heart: lost, alone, and in a place where I didn't belong.“


This book broke my heart so many times I lost count. It was not only wonderfully written but the story was something totally different.

How do you live when you're afraid of love, when you lived your whole life being scared of the one thing every person needs?

Kami meets Blaine when she least expects it. The moment they touch each other for the first time, she knows it's different. Different than ever before and scary. Kami is scared of a lot of things and Blaine made it his job to show her that love isn't scary. Kami lived her whole life pushing people away because she was afraid to fall. But what happens when you're in the middle of falling? How do you stop? How do you tell your heart that it can't happen? Right, you can't. But Kami tries everything to make it stop.
Her life was never easy, but no matter how much she wanted to, she never stopped fighting.

My stories never had happy endings.“ - Kami

S.L. Jennings describes Kami's life, her feelings, her fears in a way that left be breathless not only once. My heart broke so many times for that girl, for all her fears, for the way she saw herself. A girl who thinks she doesn't deserve to be loved, who does everything to push all the feelings aside, to try to fight this world alone.

Blaine tries his best to show Kami every day how much she means to him, that he won't run because of her past, that he isn't afraid of her fears. But is he strong enough to fight until she realizes that she deserves to be loved?

Because, Kami, when you know, you know. And you don't fight it. You don't deny the inevitable. You free fall because you know there's someone there to catch you on the other side.“ - Blaine

I enjoyed reading this book so much even though it was so sad but totally beautiful, all at the same time. It shows how much a person can survive, how strong a person can be when they've got others to count on. That's what you need: People to count on, people who love you, no matter how unloveable you think you are.

Donnerstag, 4. Juli 2013

Change what you can!

Isn't it weird when all you really wanna do at the moment is change your life completely but you're too afraid to do it? You're afraid to fail, even if that's what life is about. You fail, you try again, you fail again, you try even harder. If it's worth the risk you then take the fall, right?!
But why is it so hard sometimes? You realize that you're not doing what you're supposed to do but you know the people around you are proud of what you do. They don't realize that it doesn't make you happy. That deep inside you know you shouldn't do it, but you do anyway. It makes them happy and you wanna see them happy even though you're not. Isn't it weird? Shouldn't your own happiness be more important than the happiness of other people? It's your life.
What are you more afraid of: To fail or to know that they're not proud of you anymore?
There's always time to change it all. Try over again. Make mistakes and fail. You just need to remember how to stand up again and try harder. How to do it all over again. You don't need a Plan B if your Plan A is good. You live the life, not the others. If you don't do what makes you happy, there's no sense in making them happy. What an awful way to spend your life unhappy with the people around you being happy about things that make you sad. People will give you shit no matter what you do in life. Show people that you actually can do everything they always told you you can't. Show them that sometimes things need time to work out good. Show them that you're strong enough to try over again and don't give up.
It's easy to say but hard to actually do all that. But why? Why do we do things that frustrate us? That make us disappointed in ourselves? That let us doubt everything we've done so far?
We need people to believe in us but what if you're too afraid of your own plans to tell anyone? You're afraid of their reaction. You're afraid that they will talk you out of it.
If no one believes in you, you have to believe in yourself. If no one helps you try it, you gotta try it yourself. Don't live for other people's happiness. Change what you need to change. Change what you can. Take the risk when you know it'd be worth the fall!

Sonntag, 23. Juni 2013

When you break someone's heart, you also break your own.

Here's another part of what might be a new series on my blog. Me talking about quotes I love and why they mean something to me. This one will be about pushing people away, being scared and trying not to need anybody. It's about love, loss and trying to change.



I took the following quotes from Cassia Leo's book Pieces Of You.



The quickest path to self-destruction is to push away the people you love.

I'm really good at that. I push people away because it's easier than trusting them first and get disappointed in the end. It's easier to push them away when you expect them to leave anyway. Getting too attached to someone always turned out to be a big mistake. I tried over and over again to trust people but I just can't. People always leave or put you second when they find someone better. I often think that things would be easier if I'd let people in and I really try but there are just a few ones I really trust.
I try to take the quote to heart because I know it won't make me happy to push people away in the long run.
There are people I wish I never pushed away, but I did. There are things in life you can never unmake, I wish I could.



I was drowning when I met you. I was barely breathing until you saved me. 

Sometimes you can't save yourself and you need someone else to do it. Sometimes you need someone to show you the bright sides of life again. Someone who will make you laugh and shiver in all the best ways, when all you wanna do is cry. You need someone who will show you the way back to the surface. 




The biggest mistake you made was loving me enough to let me go.

You meet someone, you trust him with all of your secrets, you get scared to get disappointed, you push him away, over and over again, until he leaves.




There is so much more I could say about these quotes, but that's it for now. I don't want it to be too personal, I think the quotes say it all.


Cheers x 

 

Dienstag, 18. Juni 2013

Words mean more than you might believe.

Well, I'm a little obsessed with quotes. Okay, I'm REALLY obsessed with quotes. I have notebooks full of quotes. Everytime I see a quote I like I write it down. If I don't have my notebook with me, I scribble it on a piece of paper and tuck it anywhere safe until I can write it down in my notebook. 
So now I decided to write a post (or maybe more than one) with my favorite quotes in it. It can be lyrics, picture quotes, famous quotes or unknown ones. I will say why it means something to me. 
I tried to pick a favorite one but I can't. It's like picking a favorite song from your favroite band. You just can't. I mean you don't ask a mom to pick a favroite child, you just don't! So here is the first round of my favorite quotes!




Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger. The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger.- Fall Out Boy 

This quote is from Fall Out Boy's new album 'Save Rock and Roll' and it's especially the last part of the quote that means a lot. "The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger". I'm really bad when it comes to trusting people and that's because people disappointed me too often. Of course I disappointed people too. I mean it's like one of the things that are inevitable in life. But it's those you actually trusted and would do a hell of a lot for that shoot you in the end. They are behind the trigger because you gave them the power to hurt you by trusting them. I don't do that very often anymore. 




 
Hope is the one thing that keeps us going and makes the fight worth fighting. - Unknown
 
What would we do without hope? We'd be hopeless and then we'd be lost. We hope that things will be better one day and that gives us the strength to fight. Never lose hope!



 
I refuse to sink.- Unknown

This became my motto because of so many reasons. Did you ever feel like drowning without being in the water? Did you ever struggle so hard to get back to the surface that you didn't know if you'll make it? People tried to push me down so many times. They tried so hard to keep me on the ground but I tried harder to get up again. There were times when you think about giving up, drowning like a stone, but you don't because sometimes there are people who give you a reason to keep fighting without even knowing it. I do refuse to sink, no matter how worse things get or how hopeless I might be. There'll be hope, and there will always be at least one reason to keep fighting. 



 
Tears stream down your face when you lose something you cannot replace. - Coldplay 

I lost so much over the years. I lost my grandparents, I lost friends, I lost people I loved the most. I lost my pride, my hope, my love and my faith in people. Some of these things I found again, others were lost forever and there will never be anything that could replace them. 
There are people you lose. They die, they leave, they never come back. Some of them had a place in your heart that will stay empty forever, others had a place that will be filled by new people. Most of them were just meant to stay for a while but others were never meant to leave. Those are the ones who will leave places in your heart behind that will never be refilled. Some may try to replace them but no matter how hard they try, they can't. 
It hurts when you lose those that weren't meant to go!




Okay, that's it for now. I will definitely do it again and I hope I will have the time to do it more often. Please, if you read this and like it, leave a comment. Tell me one of your favorite quotes, tell your friends, share the love for quotes.

Cheers x 
 

Mittwoch, 12. Juni 2013

Another Music Tag Part 2!

So, here's part 2 of the music tag post!



16. One of your favorite songs people wouldn't expect you to like:

    The Avett Brothers - Die Die Die
   
17. A song that you would sing a duet with on karaoke:

    The View - Same Jeans

18. A song from the year that you were born:

    Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence        (I couldn't really find a song I liked)

19. A song that makes you think about life:

    Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

20. A song that has many meanings to you:

    Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

21. A favorite song with a person's name in the title:

    All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

22. A song that moves you forward:

    Rascal Flatts - Life Is A Highway

23. A song that you think everybody should listen to:

    Ellie Goulding - I Know You Care

24. A song by a band you wish were still together:

    Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

25. A song by an artist no longer living:

    John Lennon - Imagine

26. A song that makes you want to fall in love:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me      (Yeah, again!)

27. A song that breaks your heart:

    All Time Low - Therapy

28. A song by an artist with a voice that you love:

    The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming

29. A song that you remember from your childhood:

    The Beatles - Yesterday

30. A song that reminds you of yourself:

    Simple Plan - This Song Saved My Life   

Sonntag, 9. Juni 2013

Another Music Tag Part 1!

Vanessa from house in the sand posted a new music tag which I really like. She split it in two parts, so this part consists of 15 questions and the second part, too. So, I hope you like the first part.


1. A song you like with a color in the title:

   The View - Double Yellow Lines


2. A song you like with a number in the title:

   Wakey!Wakey! - Twenty Two

3. A song that reminds you of summertime:
    
    Simple Plan - Summer Paradise

4. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:

   A Rocket To The Moon - Like We Used To

5. A song that needs to be played loud:

   Three Days Grace - Are You Ready

6. A song that makes you want to dance:

   All Time Low - Lost In Stereo

7. A song to drive to:

   The Wombats - Moving To New York

8. A song about drugs or alcohol:

   The Replacements - Here Comes A Regular

9. A song that makes you happy:

   Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance

10. A song that makes you sad:

    Adele - Someone Like You

11. A song you never get tired of:

    All Time Low - Weightless

12. A song from your preteen years:

    Busted - Year 3000

13. One of your favorite 80's songs:

    The Cure - Friday I'm In Love

14. A song that you would love played at your wedding:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me

15. A song that is a cover by another artist:

    Kate Voegele - Till The World Ends


So, that's it for now. Can't wait for part two. If you decide to do this, too, leave a comment with a link to your post!

Hope you enjoyed it! xx

Freitag, 17. Mai 2013

Bookreview: 'No Attachments' by Tiffany King

Ashton Garrison walked away from a privileged life in order to hide from the one thing she's not willing to face. She knows she left behind a trail of pain, but in the long run, her betrayal will hurt less than the truth. She now has one goal: Live life to the fullest with no regrets and no attachments. She has high hopes that a move to new surroundings will provide the escape she desires, but what Ashton doesn't count on is how fate always seems to find a way to screw up any good plan. Sometimes, when love comes knocking, the pull is too strong not to answer. Suddenly, what she thought she wanted to escape from is what Ashton now wants more than anything.

Nathan Lockton has one mission: find his target and complete the task he was hired to do—no attachments and no emotion necessary. He's done it over and over again. What he thought was a typical lost-and-found job has turned into a life examining moment as Nathan is forced to deal with something he has always ignored--his feelings. Now faced with a decision, Nathan must choose to either follow his heart or complete the job.

Love can come when you least expect it. The question is: If the odds are stacked against you, how far are you willing to go for the one you love?




 - „What if you fall in love with me?“ „You keep asking that. Trust me on this. My heart is too hardened to ever love again.“ -



A man. A woman. A bucket list. A lot of secrets. And no attachments.

A one night stand with no strings attached? Sounds easy enough to put it on a bucket list. That might've been Ashton's thoughts when she put that fact on the list. But when she met Nathan, the target, to cross that thing off her list, she didn't think about what role fate would play in her game.
They both know what they want, no love, just sex, nothing serious. But there's no harm in getting to know each other, right? They went from one night stand to an affair until all hell breaks lose and they unwillingly reveal all their secrets they both tried to keep hidden.

This book was by far the most surprising one I read from Tiffany King. The turn in the story shocked me completely even though the reader was kind of prepared for it. The chapters alternate between Ashton's POV and Nathan's POV which gives the reader a better perspective of their feelings and thoughts which is, in my opinion, the best way King could've wrote this story.
After all secrets have been laid out, the story goes in a new direction which makes it more important to know what both characters think/feel.


 
    Sometimes life throws you a curveball and either you duck to avoid it, or you swing at it with all your might.”
    “Which option did you take?”
    “Neither. I chose option three, which was to walk away.”
    -

Ashton found out that you can't always control what happens in life when she was young and since then life proved that point over and over again. She tried to run away from everything but when she met Nathan she slowly got to the point where she decided that running was no longer an option.

This book is a reminder that life's tough and no matter how many things you had already planned out, fate always seems to have another plan for you. Running away might keep you happy until reality catches up with you.
So like I said this book is surprising, different and anything but boring. Totally worth reading.

Sonntag, 12. Mai 2013

Bookreview: 'Sweet Thing' by Renee Carlino

Mia Kelly is a twenty-five-year-old walking Gap ad who thinks she has life figured out when her father’s sudden death uproots her from slow-paced Ann Arbor to New York City’s bustling East Village. There she discovers her father’s spirit for life and the legacy he left behind with the help of an old café, a few eccentric friends, and one charming musician.

Will Ryan is good-looking, poetic, spontaneous, and on the brink of fame when he meets Mia, his new landlord, muse, and personal heartbreaker.

A story of self-discovery and friendship, Sweet Thing shines light on the power of loving and letting go.


- “I guess I'm realizing we're all just people... trying to figure it all out.“ -


I can hardly find the right words to describe this book. It's amazing, surprising, well-written and different than anything I've read before. I'm a sucker for quotes and this book is full of them. Renee Carlino has a way with words you don't see in every book and rarely so well used.
This book isn't just about love and friendship, it goes so much deeper.

Mia and Will end up being roommates when she moves to New York City after her dad died, to continue her fathers business, a café in the East Village. She loves music and learned to play different instruments from her father when she spent the summers in NYC. But she likes safety more than music.
Will is a musician by heart and even though Mia soon discovers her feelings for him, she won't let him see them because he's anything but safety as a musician on the verge to fame but with no record deal, hopping from bar to bar playing every other night with his band or solo.
They become best friends who jam at nights in their apartement and discover their love for music and each other but Mia fights every urge to go for it, she rather goes out with a banker she doesn't love and ends up getting jealous about Will's girls.

Mia seems hard to love and makes you want to shake her from time to time to see how deeply Will loves her. Will on the other hand seems easy to love. He isn't afraid of putting his feelings into the music. He writes little notes, gives Mia nicknames and tries to show her how much he cares about her even when she rips his heart out over and over again without realizing it.

I don't wanna give too much away so that's all I'm gonna say about the story.

Like I said this book isn't just about love and friendship. It's about music, it's poetic and it's about the way to self-discovery. Mia fights so hard to go for the things she really loves that she hides behind those who seem to be safe. Will makes her want to escape that part of her life but she's too scared to have faith in anyone.

You have to teach your heart and mind how to sing together... then you'll hear the sound of your soul.“

During the book Mia teaches her heart and mind how to sing together even though she needs more time than anyone might've expected.

Sometimes it takes the love of others to show us who we really are.“

Mia slowly finds out who she really is but not without hurting people on the way and losing hope in between. She ends up finding her right way with the help of her friends and the music and a lot of faith.

Renee Carlino uses music as a way of conversation and understanding. I think music is highly underrated when it comes to that side and so I ended up loving this book not just because of the characters who are so much different than those in other books but mostly because of the way she uses the music as a connection for Mia and Will.
Music brings people together, it helps people to pour their hearts out if they might not be ready yet to tell others face to face how they feel. It's a poetic way to handle words and I love that about music and 'Sweet Thing'. The book is a rollercoaster ride and my heart broke not just once for Will and Mia but it's a refreshing story, different than anything you've read before.

This book is on a whole new level of inspiration. I just finished it and feel the need to read it again.

Dienstag, 30. April 2013

Über das Vertrauen und die Liebe


Ich liebe dich.
Aber ich bin nicht in dich verliebt.
Nicht mehr!
Das ist vorbei, doch die Liebe, die ist nicht vorbei.
Wir haben uns nicht entliebt,
wir waren einfach feige.
Wir waren nicht stark genug, haben nicht gekämpft,
wenn wir hätten kämpfen sollen.
Wir waren zu stolz und vielleicht auch zu naiv.
Zu stolz, unsere Fehler zuzugeben und zu naiv zu denken,
dass man Probleme totschweigen kann.
Das Leben hat uns einen Strich durch die Rechnung gemacht:
Dinge verschwinden nicht, nur weil man nicht über sie redet.
Sie verblassen oder verschwimmen,
aber sie sind da,
unter der Oberfläche, der Decke des Schweigens.
Mir hat das Vertrauen gefehlt!
Nicht nur zu dir, sondern ganz allgemein.
Ich zweifle zu viel, hast du immer gesagt.
Du hast dich bemüht, keine Zweifel zuzulassen.
Du warst immer für mich da, doch die Vergangenheit
konntest selbst du nicht ändern.

Und wie vertraust du anderen Menschen,
wenn ein Mensch, der dein Vertrauen hätte haben müssen
es immer missbraucht hat?
Woher weißt du, wer es wert ist?
Es ist, als würdest du springen und der andere hält
die Seile zu dem Sprungtuch.
Er entscheidet, ob er festhält oder loslässt.
Als Kind bin ich oft gesprungen und gefallen,
doch man steht wieder auf und versucht es noch einmal.
Irgendwann muss er die Seile doch festhalten,
denkt man sich,
denn Kinder sind ja optimistisch.

Da standen wir nun und hatten eine Entscheidung getroffen,
die eigentlich keiner von uns unterstützte.
Ich wollte springen!
Es noch einmal riskieren.
Ich wollte dir zeigen, dass ich stark genug dafür bin
und dass du es verdienst, doch du hattest aufgegeben.
Als ich mich umdrehte, warst du schon fort.
Und ich gebe dir nicht die Schuld.
Wie könnte ich auch?
Du konntest nicht für uns beide stark sein
und ich nicht einmal für mich selbst.
Ich liebe dich.
Noch immer.
Aber ich bin nicht in dich verliebt!
Nicht mehr.