The Highlighting Project!

A few weeks ago I had the following idea:

I love reading. Okay, I'm addicted to books, to be honest. I think it's interesting to see what others think of the books you like. So, that's how I got this idea. After posting this on my twitter a really good friend of mine said she'd be up for this project and that's how it went. I said that Slammed by Colleen Hoover would be a good book for this and I'm so glad that Jana from London Calling wanted to be a part of this and liked the book as much as I did.

I read the book first, using a pink highlighter and she would use a yellow one, so that the parts we both highlighted turned orange.
So, after reading the book and highlighting my favorite scenes and quotes, I gave her the book when we met at a concert a couple of weeks ago.

The book is one of my favorites. Not only because of Colleen Hoover's writing style but also because of the way she told Lake's and Will's story. Music and poems are big parts of this book, and for a music and poem lover those are good enough reasons to read this book. 

After her dad died unexpectedly, her mother decides to move with her daughter, Lake, and her 9-year-old son, Kel, from Texas to Michigan. Kel becomes good friends with the neighbor's kid who has an older brother, Will. When Lake and Will meet for the first time, Michigan doesn't seem to be that bad anymore and Lake and Will soon find their way to each other. But life has other plans and as soon as they found each other, they're forced to be apart again due to unexpected events. Even though they shouldn't be together, it's hard for them to accept it and their feelings can't be denied. Will loves poems and soon Lake shares that love with him. During their time apart poems and music seems to be the only connection between them when they try their hardest to move on.

Everyone who likes poems, music and a good love story should read this book. It's a rollercoaster, it breaks your heart, it might make you cry, but it's worth every single emotion.

 

If you have a friend who likes to read the same books as you, you should try this project. I loved it and I can't wait to do this again with a different book. 

Thanks again, Jana, it was great! If you wanna read her opinion on this project, go to her blog and check it out.

Bookreview: Fear Of Falling by S.L. Jennings

I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.

He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.

My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”

And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.

“At that moment, I felt just like that paper heart: lost, alone, and in a place where I didn't belong.“

This book broke my heart so many times I lost count. It was not only wonderfully written but the story was something totally different.

How do you live when you're afraid of love, when you lived your whole life being scared of the one thing every person needs?

Kami meets Blaine when she least expects it. The moment they touch each other for the first time, she knows it's different. Different than ever before and scary. Kami is scared of a lot of things and Blaine made it his job to show her that love isn't scary. Kami lived her whole life pushing people away because she was afraid to fall. But what happens when you're in the middle of falling? How do you stop? How do you tell your heart that it can't happen? Right, you can't. But Kami tries everything to make it stop.

Her life was never easy, but no matter how much she wanted to, she never stopped fighting.

“My stories never had happy endings.“ - Kami

S.L. Jennings describes Kami's life, her feelings, her fears in a way that left be breathless not only once. My heart broke so many times for that girl, for all her fears, for the way she saw herself. A girl who thinks she doesn't deserve to be loved, who does everything to push all the feelings aside, to try to fight this world alone.

Blaine tries his best to show Kami every day how much she means to him, that he won't run because of her past, that he isn't afraid of her fears. But is he strong enough to fight until she realizes that she deserves to be loved?

“Because, Kami, when you know, you know. And you don't fight it. You don't deny the inevitable. You free fall because you know there's someone there to catch you on the other side.“ - Blaine

I enjoyed reading this book so much even though it was so sad but totally beautiful, all at the same time. It shows how much a person can survive, how strong a person can be when they've got others to count on. That's what you need: People to count on, people who love you, no matter how unloveable you think you are.

Change what you can!

Isn't it weird when all you really wanna do at the moment is change your life completely but you're too afraid to do it? You're afraid to fail, even if that's what life is about. You fail, you try again, you fail again, you try even harder. If it's worth the risk you then take the fall, right?!

But why is it so hard sometimes? You realize that you're not doing what you're supposed to do but you know the people around you are proud of what you do. They don't realize that it doesn't make you happy. That deep inside you know you shouldn't do it, but you do anyway. It makes them happy and you wanna see them happy even though you're not. Isn't it weird? Shouldn't your own happiness be more important than the happiness of other people? It's your life.

What are you more afraid of: To fail or to know that they're not proud of you anymore?

There's always time to change it all. Try over again. Make mistakes and fail. You just need to remember how to stand up again and try harder. How to do it all over again. You don't need a Plan B if your Plan A is good. You live the life, not the others. If you don't do what makes you happy, there's no sense in making them happy. What an awful way to spend your life unhappy with the people around you being happy about things that make you sad. People will give you shit no matter what you do in life. Show people that you actually can do everything they always told you you can't. Show them that sometimes things need time to work out good. Show them that you're strong enough to try over again and don't give up.

It's easy to say but hard to actually do all that. But why? Why do we do things that frustrate us? That make us disappointed in ourselves? That let us doubt everything we've done so far?

We need people to believe in us but what if you're too afraid of your own plans to tell anyone? You're afraid of their reaction. You're afraid that they will talk you out of it.

If no one believes in you, you have to believe in yourself. If no one helps you try it, you gotta try it yourself. Don't live for other people's happiness. Change what you need to change. Change what you can. Take the risk when you know it'd be worth the fall!

When you break someone's heart, you also break your own.

Here's another part of what might be a new series on my blog. Me talking about quotes I love and why they mean something to me. This one will be about pushing people away, being scared and trying not to need anybody. It's about love, loss and trying to change.



I took the following quotes from Cassia Leo's book Pieces Of You.

The quickest path to self-destruction is to push away the people you love.

I'm really good at that. I push people away because it's easier than trusting them first and get disappointed in the end. It's easier to push them away when you expect them to leave anyway. Getting too attached to someone always turned out to be a big mistake. I tried over and over again to trust people but I just can't. People always leave or put you second when they find someone better. I often think that things would be easier if I'd let people in and I really try but there are just a few ones I really trust.
I try to take the quote to heart because I know it won't make me happy to push people away in the long run.
There are people I wish I never pushed away, but I did. There are things in life you can never unmake, I wish I could.

I was drowning when I met you. I was barely breathing until you saved me. 

Sometimes you can't save yourself and you need someone else to do it. Sometimes you need someone to show you the bright sides of life again. Someone who will make you laugh and shiver in all the best ways, when all you wanna do is cry. You need someone who will show you the way back to the surface. 

The biggest mistake you made was loving me enough to let me go.

You meet someone, you trust him with all of your secrets, you get scared to get disappointed, you push him away, over and over again, until he leaves.

There is so much more I could say about these quotes, but that's it for now. I don't want it to be too personal, I think the quotes say it all.

Cheers x 

 

Words mean more than you might believe.

Well, I'm a little obsessed with quotes. Okay, I'm REALLY obsessed with quotes. I have notebooks full of quotes. Everytime I see a quote I like I write it down. If I don't have my notebook with me, I scribble it on a piece of paper and tuck it anywhere safe until I can write it down in my notebook. 
So now I decided to write a post (or maybe more than one) with my favorite quotes in it. It can be lyrics, picture quotes, famous quotes or unknown ones. I will say why it means something to me. 
I tried to pick a favorite one but I can't. It's like picking a favorite song from your favroite band. You just can't. I mean you don't ask a mom to pick a favroite child, you just don't! So here is the first round of my favorite quotes!

Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger. The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger.- Fall Out Boy 

This quote is from Fall Out Boy's new album 'Save Rock and Roll' and it's especially the last part of the quote that means a lot. "The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger". I'm really bad when it comes to trusting people and that's because people disappointed me too often. Of course I disappointed people too. I mean it's like one of the things that are inevitable in life. But it's those you actually trusted and would do a hell of a lot for that shoot you in the end. They are behind the trigger because you gave them the power to hurt you by trusting them. I don't do that very often anymore. 

 

Hope is the one thing that keeps us going and makes the fight worth fighting. - Unknown

 

What would we do without hope? We'd be hopeless and then we'd be lost. We hope that things will be better one day and that gives us the strength to fight. Never lose hope!

 

I refuse to sink.- Unknown

This became my motto because of so many reasons. Did you ever feel like drowning without being in the water? Did you ever struggle so hard to get back to the surface that you didn't know if you'll make it? People tried to push me down so many times. They tried so hard to keep me on the ground but I tried harder to get up again. There were times when you think about giving up, drowning like a stone, but you don't because sometimes there are people who give you a reason to keep fighting without even knowing it. I do refuse to sink, no matter how worse things get or how hopeless I might be. There'll be hope, and there will always be at least one reason to keep fighting. 

 

Tears stream down your face when you lose something you cannot replace. - Coldplay 

I lost so much over the years. I lost my grandparents, I lost friends, I lost people I loved the most. I lost my pride, my hope, my love and my faith in people. Some of these things I found again, others were lost forever and there will never be anything that could replace them. 

There are people you lose. They die, they leave, they never come back. Some of them had a place in your heart that will stay empty forever, others had a place that will be filled by new people. Most of them were just meant to stay for a while but others were never meant to leave. Those are the ones who will leave places in your heart behind that will never be refilled. Some may try to replace them but no matter how hard they try, they can't. 

It hurts when you lose those that weren't meant to go!

Okay, that's it for now. I will definitely do it again and I hope I will have the time to do it more often. Please, if you read this and like it, leave a comment. Tell me one of your favorite quotes, tell your friends, share the love for quotes.

Cheers x 

 

Another Music Tag Part 2!

So, here's part 2 of the music tag post!



16. One of your favorite songs people wouldn't expect you to like:

    The Avett Brothers - Die Die Die
   
17. A song that you would sing a duet with on karaoke:

    The View - Same Jeans

18. A song from the year that you were born:

    Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence        (I couldn't really find a song I liked)

19. A song that makes you think about life:

    Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

20. A song that has many meanings to you:

    Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

21. A favorite song with a person's name in the title:

    All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

22. A song that moves you forward:

    Rascal Flatts - Life Is A Highway

23. A song that you think everybody should listen to:

    Ellie Goulding - I Know You Care

24. A song by a band you wish were still together:

    Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

25. A song by an artist no longer living:

    John Lennon - Imagine

26. A song that makes you want to fall in love:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me      (Yeah, again!)

27. A song that breaks your heart:

    All Time Low - Therapy

28. A song by an artist with a voice that you love:

    The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming

29. A song that you remember from your childhood:

    The Beatles - Yesterday

30. A song that reminds you of yourself:

    Simple Plan - This Song Saved My Life   

Another Music Tag Part 1!

Vanessa from house in the sand posted a new music tag which I really like. She split it in two parts, so this part consists of 15 questions and the second part, too. So, I hope you like the first part.


1. A song you like with a color in the title:

   The View - Double Yellow Lines

2. A song you like with a number in the title:

   Wakey!Wakey! - Twenty Two

3. A song that reminds you of summertime:
    
    Simple Plan - Summer Paradise

4. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:

   A Rocket To The Moon - Like We Used To

5. A song that needs to be played loud:

   Three Days Grace - Are You Ready

6. A song that makes you want to dance:

   All Time Low - Lost In Stereo

7. A song to drive to:

   The Wombats - Moving To New York

8. A song about drugs or alcohol:

   The Replacements - Here Comes A Regular

9. A song that makes you happy:

   Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance

10. A song that makes you sad:

    Adele - Someone Like You

11. A song you never get tired of:

    All Time Low - Weightless

12. A song from your preteen years:

    Busted - Year 3000

13. One of your favorite 80's songs:

    The Cure - Friday I'm In Love

14. A song that you would love played at your wedding:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me

15. A song that is a cover by another artist:

    Kate Voegele - Till The World Ends


So, that's it for now. Can't wait for part two. If you decide to do this, too, leave a comment with a link to your post!

Hope you enjoyed it! xx