When you break someone's heart, you also break your own.

Here's another part of what might be a new series on my blog. Me talking about quotes I love and why they mean something to me. This one will be about pushing people away, being scared and trying not to need anybody. It's about love, loss and trying to change.



I took the following quotes from Cassia Leo's book Pieces Of You.

The quickest path to self-destruction is to push away the people you love.

I'm really good at that. I push people away because it's easier than trusting them first and get disappointed in the end. It's easier to push them away when you expect them to leave anyway. Getting too attached to someone always turned out to be a big mistake. I tried over and over again to trust people but I just can't. People always leave or put you second when they find someone better. I often think that things would be easier if I'd let people in and I really try but there are just a few ones I really trust.
I try to take the quote to heart because I know it won't make me happy to push people away in the long run.
There are people I wish I never pushed away, but I did. There are things in life you can never unmake, I wish I could.

I was drowning when I met you. I was barely breathing until you saved me. 

Sometimes you can't save yourself and you need someone else to do it. Sometimes you need someone to show you the bright sides of life again. Someone who will make you laugh and shiver in all the best ways, when all you wanna do is cry. You need someone who will show you the way back to the surface. 

The biggest mistake you made was loving me enough to let me go.

You meet someone, you trust him with all of your secrets, you get scared to get disappointed, you push him away, over and over again, until he leaves.

There is so much more I could say about these quotes, but that's it for now. I don't want it to be too personal, I think the quotes say it all.

Cheers x 

 

Words mean more than you might believe.

Well, I'm a little obsessed with quotes. Okay, I'm REALLY obsessed with quotes. I have notebooks full of quotes. Everytime I see a quote I like I write it down. If I don't have my notebook with me, I scribble it on a piece of paper and tuck it anywhere safe until I can write it down in my notebook. 
So now I decided to write a post (or maybe more than one) with my favorite quotes in it. It can be lyrics, picture quotes, famous quotes or unknown ones. I will say why it means something to me. 
I tried to pick a favorite one but I can't. It's like picking a favorite song from your favroite band. You just can't. I mean you don't ask a mom to pick a favroite child, you just don't! So here is the first round of my favorite quotes!

Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger. The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger.- Fall Out Boy 

This quote is from Fall Out Boy's new album 'Save Rock and Roll' and it's especially the last part of the quote that means a lot. "The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger". I'm really bad when it comes to trusting people and that's because people disappointed me too often. Of course I disappointed people too. I mean it's like one of the things that are inevitable in life. But it's those you actually trusted and would do a hell of a lot for that shoot you in the end. They are behind the trigger because you gave them the power to hurt you by trusting them. I don't do that very often anymore. 

 

Hope is the one thing that keeps us going and makes the fight worth fighting. - Unknown

 

What would we do without hope? We'd be hopeless and then we'd be lost. We hope that things will be better one day and that gives us the strength to fight. Never lose hope!

 

I refuse to sink.- Unknown

This became my motto because of so many reasons. Did you ever feel like drowning without being in the water? Did you ever struggle so hard to get back to the surface that you didn't know if you'll make it? People tried to push me down so many times. They tried so hard to keep me on the ground but I tried harder to get up again. There were times when you think about giving up, drowning like a stone, but you don't because sometimes there are people who give you a reason to keep fighting without even knowing it. I do refuse to sink, no matter how worse things get or how hopeless I might be. There'll be hope, and there will always be at least one reason to keep fighting. 

 

Tears stream down your face when you lose something you cannot replace. - Coldplay 

I lost so much over the years. I lost my grandparents, I lost friends, I lost people I loved the most. I lost my pride, my hope, my love and my faith in people. Some of these things I found again, others were lost forever and there will never be anything that could replace them. 

There are people you lose. They die, they leave, they never come back. Some of them had a place in your heart that will stay empty forever, others had a place that will be filled by new people. Most of them were just meant to stay for a while but others were never meant to leave. Those are the ones who will leave places in your heart behind that will never be refilled. Some may try to replace them but no matter how hard they try, they can't. 

It hurts when you lose those that weren't meant to go!

Okay, that's it for now. I will definitely do it again and I hope I will have the time to do it more often. Please, if you read this and like it, leave a comment. Tell me one of your favorite quotes, tell your friends, share the love for quotes.

Cheers x 

 

Another Music Tag Part 2!

So, here's part 2 of the music tag post!



16. One of your favorite songs people wouldn't expect you to like:

    The Avett Brothers - Die Die Die
   
17. A song that you would sing a duet with on karaoke:

    The View - Same Jeans

18. A song from the year that you were born:

    Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence        (I couldn't really find a song I liked)

19. A song that makes you think about life:

    Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

20. A song that has many meanings to you:

    Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

21. A favorite song with a person's name in the title:

    All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

22. A song that moves you forward:

    Rascal Flatts - Life Is A Highway

23. A song that you think everybody should listen to:

    Ellie Goulding - I Know You Care

24. A song by a band you wish were still together:

    Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

25. A song by an artist no longer living:

    John Lennon - Imagine

26. A song that makes you want to fall in love:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me      (Yeah, again!)

27. A song that breaks your heart:

    All Time Low - Therapy

28. A song by an artist with a voice that you love:

    The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming

29. A song that you remember from your childhood:

    The Beatles - Yesterday

30. A song that reminds you of yourself:

    Simple Plan - This Song Saved My Life   

Another Music Tag Part 1!

Vanessa from house in the sand posted a new music tag which I really like. She split it in two parts, so this part consists of 15 questions and the second part, too. So, I hope you like the first part.


1. A song you like with a color in the title:

   The View - Double Yellow Lines

2. A song you like with a number in the title:

   Wakey!Wakey! - Twenty Two

3. A song that reminds you of summertime:
    
    Simple Plan - Summer Paradise

4. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:

   A Rocket To The Moon - Like We Used To

5. A song that needs to be played loud:

   Three Days Grace - Are You Ready

6. A song that makes you want to dance:

   All Time Low - Lost In Stereo

7. A song to drive to:

   The Wombats - Moving To New York

8. A song about drugs or alcohol:

   The Replacements - Here Comes A Regular

9. A song that makes you happy:

   Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance

10. A song that makes you sad:

    Adele - Someone Like You

11. A song you never get tired of:

    All Time Low - Weightless

12. A song from your preteen years:

    Busted - Year 3000

13. One of your favorite 80's songs:

    The Cure - Friday I'm In Love

14. A song that you would love played at your wedding:

    Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me

15. A song that is a cover by another artist:

    Kate Voegele - Till The World Ends


So, that's it for now. Can't wait for part two. If you decide to do this, too, leave a comment with a link to your post!

Hope you enjoyed it! xx

Bookreview: 'No Attachments' by Tiffany King

Ashton Garrison walked away from a privileged life in order to hide from the one thing she's not willing to face. She knows she left behind a trail of pain, but in the long run, her betrayal will hurt less than the truth. She now has one goal: Live life to the fullest with no regrets and no attachments. She has high hopes that a move to new surroundings will provide the escape she desires, but what Ashton doesn't count on is how fate always seems to find a way to screw up any good plan. Sometimes, when love comes knocking, the pull is too strong not to answer. Suddenly, what she thought she wanted to escape from is what Ashton now wants more than anything.

Nathan Lockton has one mission: find his target and complete the task he was hired to do—no attachments and no emotion necessary. He's done it over and over again. What he thought was a typical lost-and-found job has turned into a life examining moment as Nathan is forced to deal with something he has always ignored--his feelings. Now faced with a decision, Nathan must choose to either follow his heart or complete the job.

Love can come when you least expect it. The question is: If the odds are stacked against you, how far are you willing to go for the one you love?

 - „What if you fall in love with me?“ „You keep asking that. Trust me on this. My heart is too hardened to ever love again.“ -

A man. A woman. A bucket list. A lot of secrets. And no attachments.

A one night stand with no strings attached? Sounds easy enough to put it on a bucket list. That might've been Ashton's thoughts when she put that fact on the list. But when she met Nathan, the target, to cross that thing off her list, she didn't think about what role fate would play in her game.

They both know what they want, no love, just sex, nothing serious. But there's no harm in getting to know each other, right? They went from one night stand to an affair until all hell breaks lose and they unwillingly reveal all their secrets they both tried to keep hidden.

This book was by far the most surprising one I read from Tiffany King. The turn in the story shocked me completely even though the reader was kind of prepared for it. The chapters alternate between Ashton's POV and Nathan's POV which gives the reader a better perspective of their feelings and thoughts which is, in my opinion, the best way King could've wrote this story.

After all secrets have been laid out, the story goes in a new direction which makes it more important to know what both characters think/feel.

 

„Sometimes life throws you a curveball and either you duck to avoid it, or you swing at it with all your might.”
“Which option did you take?”
“Neither. I chose option three, which was to walk away.” -

Ashton found out that you can't always control what happens in life when she was young and since then life proved that point over and over again. She tried to run away from everything but when she met Nathan she slowly got to the point where she decided that running was no longer an option.

This book is a reminder that life's tough and no matter how many things you had already planned out, fate always seems to have another plan for you. Running away might keep you happy until reality catches up with you.

So like I said this book is surprising, different and anything but boring. Totally worth reading.

Bookreview: 'Sweet Thing' by Renee Carlino

Mia Kelly is a twenty-five-year-old walking Gap ad who thinks she has life figured out when her father’s sudden death uproots her from slow-paced Ann Arbor to New York City’s bustling East Village. There she discovers her father’s spirit for life and the legacy he left behind with the help of an old café, a few eccentric friends, and one charming musician.

Will Ryan is good-looking, poetic, spontaneous, and on the brink of fame when he meets Mia, his new landlord, muse, and personal heartbreaker.

A story of self-discovery and friendship, Sweet Thing shines light on the power of loving and letting go.

- “I guess I'm realizing we're all just people... trying to figure it all out.“ -

I can hardly find the right words to describe this book. It's amazing, surprising, well-written and different than anything I've read before. I'm a sucker for quotes and this book is full of them. Renee Carlino has a way with words you don't see in every book and rarely so well used.

This book isn't just about love and friendship, it goes so much deeper.

Mia and Will end up being roommates when she moves to New York City after her dad died, to continue her fathers business, a café in the East Village. She loves music and learned to play different instruments from her father when she spent the summers in NYC. But she likes safety more than music.

Will is a musician by heart and even though Mia soon discovers her feelings for him, she won't let him see them because he's anything but safety as a musician on the verge to fame but with no record deal, hopping from bar to bar playing every other night with his band or solo.

They become best friends who jam at nights in their apartement and discover their love for music and each other but Mia fights every urge to go for it, she rather goes out with a banker she doesn't love and ends up getting jealous about Will's girls.

Mia seems hard to love and makes you want to shake her from time to time to see how deeply Will loves her. Will on the other hand seems easy to love. He isn't afraid of putting his feelings into the music. He writes little notes, gives Mia nicknames and tries to show her how much he cares about her even when she rips his heart out over and over again without realizing it.

I don't wanna give too much away so that's all I'm gonna say about the story.

Like I said this book isn't just about love and friendship. It's about music, it's poetic and it's about the way to self-discovery. Mia fights so hard to go for the things she really loves that she hides behind those who seem to be safe. Will makes her want to escape that part of her life but she's too scared to have faith in anyone.

„You have to teach your heart and mind how to sing together... then you'll hear the sound of your soul.“

During the book Mia teaches her heart and mind how to sing together even though she needs more time than anyone might've expected.

„Sometimes it takes the love of others to show us who we really are.“

Mia slowly finds out who she really is but not without hurting people on the way and losing hope in between. She ends up finding her right way with the help of her friends and the music and a lot of faith.

Renee Carlino uses music as a way of conversation and understanding. I think music is highly underrated when it comes to that side and so I ended up loving this book not just because of the characters who are so much different than those in other books but mostly because of the way she uses the music as a connection for Mia and Will.

Music brings people together, it helps people to pour their hearts out if they might not be ready yet to tell others face to face how they feel. It's a poetic way to handle words and I love that about music and 'Sweet Thing'. The book is a rollercoaster ride and my heart broke not just once for Will and Mia but it's a refreshing story, different than anything you've read before.

This book is on a whole new level of inspiration. I just finished it and feel the need to read it again.

Über das Vertrauen und die Liebe

Ich liebe dich.

Aber ich bin nicht in dich verliebt.

Nicht mehr!

Das ist vorbei, doch die Liebe, die ist nicht vorbei.

Wir haben uns nicht entliebt,

wir waren einfach feige.

Wir waren nicht stark genug, haben nicht gekämpft,

wenn wir hätten kämpfen sollen.

Wir waren zu stolz und vielleicht auch zu naiv.

Zu stolz, unsere Fehler zuzugeben und zu naiv zu denken,

dass man Probleme totschweigen kann.

Das Leben hat uns einen Strich durch die Rechnung gemacht:

Dinge verschwinden nicht, nur weil man nicht über sie redet.

Sie verblassen oder verschwimmen,

aber sie sind da,

unter der Oberfläche, der Decke des Schweigens.

Mir hat das Vertrauen gefehlt!

Nicht nur zu dir, sondern ganz allgemein.

Ich zweifle zu viel, hast du immer gesagt.

Du hast dich bemüht, keine Zweifel zuzulassen.

Du warst immer für mich da, doch die Vergangenheit

konntest selbst du nicht ändern.

Und wie vertraust du anderen Menschen,

wenn ein Mensch, der dein Vertrauen hätte haben müssen

es immer missbraucht hat?

Woher weißt du, wer es wert ist?

Es ist, als würdest du springen und der andere hält

die Seile zu dem Sprungtuch.

Er entscheidet, ob er festhält oder loslässt.

Als Kind bin ich oft gesprungen und gefallen,

doch man steht wieder auf und versucht es noch einmal.

Irgendwann muss er die Seile doch festhalten,

denkt man sich,

denn Kinder sind ja optimistisch.

Da standen wir nun und hatten eine Entscheidung getroffen,

die eigentlich keiner von uns unterstützte.

Ich wollte springen!

Es noch einmal riskieren.

Ich wollte dir zeigen, dass ich stark genug dafür bin

und dass du es verdienst, doch du hattest aufgegeben.

Als ich mich umdrehte, warst du schon fort.

Und ich gebe dir nicht die Schuld.

Wie könnte ich auch?

Du konntest nicht für uns beide stark sein

und ich nicht einmal für mich selbst.

Ich liebe dich.

Noch immer.

Aber ich bin nicht in dich verliebt!

Nicht mehr.