I'm actually
thankful for so many things. I intended to post this yesterday when
it was Thanksgiving in the US, but I'm not from the US so I thought
it doesn't really matter when I post this.
Yesterday at work I
thought that it would be nice to celebrate something like
Thanksgiving here in Germany. I often think that people take too many
things for granted. They don't think about what it means to have
certain people in their life. They're there and they expect them to
always be there. But maybe they're not. I learned the hard way that
too many people leave your life way too early. I lost so many people
due to different circumstances and maybe that makes you think about
things differently. I try to tell the people I really love and want
in my life how much they mean to me. I even feel guilty when I forget
to tell my mom that I love her when I go back to university on
Sundays. It sounds crazy but I want her to know and hear it. I'm
always afraid that one day another person I love will be gone. Those
things scare me but I confront myself with those thoughts, even if
that sounds crazy but it's a good thing for me, or not so good.
I'm thankful for the
people in my life, those who show me or tell me that they're happy to
be in my life. I'm one of those who need a constant reminder that
they actually want to be friends with me, that it means something to
them. I doubt myself way too often and way too much, and them telling
me they like being friends with me helps a lot.
I need those people
in my life who support my crazy ideas, my unhealthy obsessions, my
fucked up moods and the times when I doubt myself too much. I'm
thankful for my parents (that actually includes my mom and stepdad).
And I'm thankful for two people who gave me the chance of my life
this year. Two authors who let me do what I love doing – editing
their books. They gave me my first chances and didn't really know
what to expect. I'm so thankful for that because they helped me so
much in getting closer to my dream-job.
On another note, I'm
thankful for my dog, books, music, TV shows (I'm really addicted to
American TV shows, I can't help it), movies, traveling, and all
things awesome. Online shopping, yeah, I'm definitely thankful for
that.
I'm sure I forgot a
lot of things and there are too often moments in my life when I
forget all these things I just mentioned. I forget them when I'm
down, when I'm annoyed, when I don't feel good. But I try to remind
myself of all the good things.
xx
